Tuesday, March 02, 2010

March 2010

Header for March posts.

166 comments:

Anonymous said...

my husband hired the government to kidnap his own children and destroy me? which one of you paid the government to make that raid on woman and children........traitor's to our country that you are?

Anonymous said...

Your husband was your traitor, he combined love with hate.

Anonymous said...

you are more than right. I wish I could forget...that would be the greatest thing in the world....to forget...forget I ever met him. forget I met his friends. forget I ever knew their faces....forget...that would be the greatest gift....to forget.....

Anonymous said...

It would just be the greatest thing If I could forget that I was born here, and that I ever met them there...It would be the greatest thing if I did not know there names. If I did not know there faces....how great it would have been to forget and have had a life...a life besides men who call me names and hated me.........men who destroy and betray and sit in church the next day in a fancy suit....

Anonymous said...

forgiveness benefits the forgiver more than the forgiven, bitterness and hatred or deadly poisons.

Anonymous said...

my prayer for today; God help me forget I ever met them. Help me forget I thought they cared. Help me forget their names and faces. Help me forget I needed them there. Help me forget I asked you for their love and help me forget I cared.........

Anonymous said...

help me forget my mother's face; not that she will miss me, I was only my father's mistake......she never knew him or I was there....help me forget my brother's and my sister's too....help me forget I ever knew.....

Anonymous said...

Forgiveness dear sister, forgiveness. That is what I
practice every night. That is why
they pay us to stay away.

Anonymous said...

I wonder what it would have felt like to have been loved. I mean for real.... I suppose when I die, I will meet Jesus and know. Until then I have to live here and hear the insults of every soul upon the earth. It was easy for the men to destroy my life......I hate you tooooooooooooalll of youllllllllfor you sabataged me and hated me tooooooooooo and lovve is a cancer and a lie...that is why sam and stephan rule your church.....faggots

Anonymous said...

now, I know why every one blames me for their sins. They think they will not have to account.

Anonymous said...

and frankly they did not pay to have me stay away...they paid to have me murdered.....

Anonymous said...

I was loved by someone I was not assigned to and I still love that person. That person was taken away
by the deception of the assigned.
Now I sit, repenting for enjoying life and freedom.

Anonymous said...

ain't it weird how a man is given woman and he trashes them, and another man goes after them and loses......the man I was given to spent all his time trying to destroy me, and the one's who would have loved me are home....I do not mind being alone. All I was was my husband's insterment anyhow....just a thing to satisfy his creepyness....

Anonymous said...

If You Think You are Beaten
by Walter D. Wintle

If you think you are beaten, you are.
If you think you dare not, you don't.
If you'd like to win but think you can't,
It's almost certain you won't.

Life's battles don't always go
To the stronger or faster (wo)man,
But sooner or later, the (wo)man who wins
Is the (wo)man who thinks (s)he can.

Ok. I changed it to be multi-gender because I think it applies to ALL of us throughout our lives.

Ruth,
You feel trapped in the past and as long as you choose to remain there, there you'll be. There is no doubt that you've had a hard life but at some point you need to begin inching forward. Where there's life, there's hope.

A Friend

Anonymous said...

Being really loved Ruth, is within your heart. Love is a tender touch, a kind word, Love is gentle, Love is unselfish. Love can hurt to, but Love can heal. Love is forgiveness even when you don't forget.
Love is sometimes solitude, when no one is around, just you, the Lord.
Love is everywhere Ruth, not just with people. God created animals, and nature to Love. Beautiful mountains, awesome sunsets.
There is still time to find Love Ruth, we never grow that old.

Anonymous said...

I am not trapped in the past. That also was a lie of my husband and family. I was gone from town today and out there, no one knew my family's lies, of my past to throw in my face. I had a beautiful day...... I actually have had a beautiful life, except when my family talk to me....I mean about ten of my family member's who always told me what I thought and felt. who never cared about me and what I really thought and felt.....nice little drama.....I just should not have gotton married for that horrid man to hurt me....I have removed him from my memory.....

Anonymous said...

I do not appreciate all these lies about me. What can I say though. When Willard took his great liar's into court, behind my back I did not get to hear his lies.....I heard enough of them when I lived with him; but thank's to all his horrid friends I have heard the talk about me...nothing quite like gossip behind my back, now is there.....but I will tell you this.....I am older than seven, I am not stupid. I am not living in my past. My past has nothing to hold to that great. I was mostly neglegted and alone.........and I have not ever done anything to injure anyone.........and Willard Barlow is the most abusive man I have ever known and every one knows that....they just like to live in illusions here. as if walking around the truth in lies will keep abusers from being known.......He knows his lies...He knows his abuse and so does all of his family....now leave me alone about the past. I live life to the fullest every day. I love life and all people.......I love the Lord and I know he is the judge and all men will have to make an account......What? even Willard Barlow....how can this be? he is a Barlow? How could he have to account for his gross abuse? I shall tell you God is no respector of persons and all men have to pay for there own sins.......not me......

George W. said...

I'm a lonely man. My wife has died. I have believed in the principle for forty years, but live in California. I
was part of Joel's followers once, but also in contact
with the leadership at CC. Twenty-nine years of Truth
are in my bookcase. Would I be welcomed to visit at
YFZ ranch?

Anonymous said...

and you insult me to think I have not known love. I have known the greatest kind of love. The kind of love that does not hurt. the pure love that God gives to me, in spite of Willards lies and insults.....

Anonymous said...

I have known love. The greatest love there is. The love the Lord gives me. And I will always have this love, in spite of Willard's lies and insults......

Anonymous said...

George W.,
You have an impressive collection of the Truth magazine.

An interesting question:
I wonder if Warren (i.e., current FLDS) value those now? They certainly were treasured way back when they were being published before the one-man rule. In any case, I'm quite certain they have copies of every one of them.

I'm also quite certain you would NOT be welcomed at YFZ.

Anonymous said...

Ruth,
You are obviously trapped in the past if only in your mind. Move on already.

I'm glad you found a place where you can feel safe. Good luck to you!

A Friend

Anonymous said...

You speak like the man I married and his friends. Next thing I know every one will be trying to convice me he is good again....if you are truly a friend then I am grateful, but every one in the world carry's their memory's. that does not mean they are trapped in the past. and love never hurts.....

Anonymous said...

and you all could talk about something else...maybe hu? no one said anything at all until I came back to speak.

Anonymous said...

and all this people could have been honest...but they will not...they will not until they come before the Lord and weep and howl that they tried to destroy what the Lord gave them and all the children who cry to the Lord for comfort, because they had to live all their days with his lies.......and you all know it....I talk to those who are here...they all know it....

Anonymous said...

and how they all loved his lies...they rejoiced and celibrated in his filth....and hated me and rejoiced when They thought I was destroyed.....and that will forever be a witness to the LOrd against them.......for truth will stand forever

Anonymous said...

and this has been the law of my church; let the men do anything they want and walk away, but stalk and drug and beat and punish the woman, because they are weaker, and if she does not conform to the insane demands of every man she meets call the cops and destroy her with lies.....and I very deeply dislike these dishonest horrid men......for they are liars and do all they can to destroy the souls of people....

Anonymous said...

Ruth, visit your sister and she can tell you what love is. I am sure she could describe it in her isolation now. She loved a man who abused her, deceived her then he died.

Anonymous said...

and what you do not know is this; love is unconditional with the Lord. No one cared about me or my sister. She was betrayed. Yes, she was betrayed. and when you truly love some one and they betray you, you do stay alone.....that is the way it is...the Lord will not leave us alone. and he will come for us one day. He will not be predjudice with lies like the men........He is dead........and my husband did live to shame me......Yes, the Lord will have a place for me, and the time is not far off.........and there will be no one to oppose it when the time is here....I am only in my shame for a little while...and then I will be shamed no longer.....this people put an abusive man on a pedistle...they always did....he had a great buriel, when he betrayed his wifes and dragged them out to be betrayed....just like mine did me.........I can not talk on this blog any more. It is too deppressing. I had a good day....some one told me that they never listen to bad talk about me, and that they know the Lord has a place for me and they can feel it in their hearts....I am very encouraged and who ever told me that I need to move on was right.......lies are stupid to hold too......my sister will be claimed of the lord. It was spoken this way from the begginging.......of time for ever and ever.......talk about something else now, please.....

Anonymous said...

Ruth

I met you yesterday in town, you were looking so happy it cheered my heart to no end!

And its great to see that you have recovered so well. I hope and pray things go well for you!

Anon @ Wally World

Anonymous said...

Why do the FLDS insist on marrying underage girls? Anyone?

It seems so crazy to do that when all they'd have to do to save themselves from prosecution and imprisonment is wait until girls are 18 years old. Why don't they wait?

Anonymous said...

I will give you one reason that I know. I am not an expert on the reason, but as a distant observer in another girl's life, I will speak. I did watch a man abuse his daughter. One jumped out the window and ran away. The other ran off with a boy, when she was very young. another he tried to force to ask to marry a creepy man. She refused and married some one else, when she was nineteen. She had to endure his abuse, until she turned nineteen. Another went and got married as soon as she could speak and find a man who loved her.....and she has been happy as far as I know.......that is just my observation......that man is not here any longer. He has been put out and told to not ever come here again.....for abuse is not part of the teachings of Christ.......

bbgae said...

I do not know why they marry underage girls.
When I wanted to get married at 16 they told me no. I asked again at 18 and I was told no. Then "Uncle" Rulon had his stroke and no one got married for many months. It was very depressing. Especially when all your life you have been raised to grow up, get married and have children. We were told in church (1998) that no longer could underage girls get married and all the girls should stop asking. They married me off to my brother-in-law just before my 19th birthday. I didn't try to run away. I didn't because they said in church that, "In the Priesthood there is no such thing as 'coming of age'. That a man or girl never reached the age 18 or the age 21 because we all belonged to the prophet, 'body, boots, and britches.'" So, I stayed. I stayed even though I loved another and he loved me enough to come by my father's house for me (I was gone to work at the time, and no one told me until 9 years later.) I stayed and married a man who mentally abused me and physically abused my sister and their children.

Anonymous said...

I married a man who robbed me and threw me in the trash. I have no Idea why people even get married. Just to be hurt and separate I think....

Anonymous said...

some one told me that I was being watched. Do you think I did not know that? A man who tries to destroy has to watch his victum's. That is how he always stacks his cards so no one will catch him.....It is just a pity that every one does not watch themselves....the state would have had a perfect crime free record here......I already knew I was being watched......to bad Jonathon's tazer did not finsih the Job for the liar that hired him......

Anonymous said...

and it is weird, because it took this one man sixty six years before any one discovered he was a creep. I mean anyone who could throw him out, like he threw me out...and I discovered I had the same power he had. I banished him from my life. If I see or hear anything about him, I run as fast as I can......I run and run and run and run....saves the state a lot of money and the rest of my family run and run and run and run and runnnnnnnnnnn no more lies, no more abuse, no more insults.....no more creepyness.....and he is gone.....

Anonymous said...

why I hate Lyle Jeffs. one day I asked this man for help. He turned away from me. i was beaten and almost starved to death. Not by him, but by the horrid creeps I asked for help in getting away from. and after the horrid creeps did every thing they wanted to to me, Lyle Jeffs discovered that they were bad. Then he wanted to help me, and it was too late....Why I hate Lyle Jeffs....they only help men who can flatter them. Why I hate Lyle Jeffs............He only cared about himself and I hate Lyle Jeffs. All a person has to do is say a thing or two and he is flattered into destroying lives... I hate you Lyle Jeffs......

Anonymous said...

yes, and Lyle Jeffs is still one of the "leaders" with the yfz situation, isn't he? and "faihtful" flds think this is the kind of person they should be loyal to and afraid of? this is the kind of thing which shows the flds belief system has incurable problems which will never be solved. It is like a house built on floors which are rotten through, and the walls are built of fraud and people's tears. Obedience to corrupt men is demanded year after year, along with all the illegal "marriage" practices.

Anonymous said...

after being screamed at and told I was the one no one wanted, beat up by cops, had my children stolen, dropped of on the street and told they did not care about me and my daughter, that I was hated and did not mean any more to them than that house over there, and stuck out on the street, fed by every one who picked me up and insulted in court beyond reason these freaks thought I would go back to that horrid creep...think again man....I am not a slave. I am not a cow.......I was sold on the black market by that creep. and he expects me to go back now,.......where is your funny paper's? joke upon joke upon joke............stupid men........offer me to a man who can exhalt me and does not beat me up and lie.......

Anonymous said...

my husband is a floor that is rotton through and through. and through and through and through and his freinds are rotton if they support him......liar that he is......they took my children and let abuser's walk away and they think I shall go back to that horrid freak.....think again. i have a restraining order and I shall renue it if he comes near me.....he is a horrid man who destroyed my life....what does he think I would do....I would starve to death before I ever went back to him............

Anonymous said...

I guess I can not be upset with a man who did not know the deceit and lies of another man. At least Lyle Jeffs did try to help me. The Lord will honor him. He is perfect.

Anonymous said...

is that what this is all about? an attack on religion? I think that it is not in the right of other's to decide a marriage system. you have no right to judge that......gee what a world we live in.....wait a little while and the mocked shall be the kings and queens of this nation. for we already are.......

Anonymous said...

Uncle Roy used to say in church that it was not him that you are fighting, it is the Lord. You may be enjoying our sport of destroying other people's lives but no one lives forever and then they have to make an account. so, I would say this to all the nation; though you hate me and mock me and kill me, you would not change the Lord and what he does a whit. You will not change what he does with you when you go into the next life and the blood of those you destroyed will stain your hands forever....and ever.......and you and the man I married will be in a perfect hell forever......

Anonymous said...

Well, obviously you still do not get that no one is perfect except God, who shows Himself to us in Jesus Christ alone. As far as attacking a religion, when you yourself continue to put down those who point out what is wrong with flds beliefs from a Bible standpoint, showing flds is not Biblical on many points, you yourself are attacking Christ's perfection, and true Christianity yourself. Jesus knows how badly deceived you have been all your life by flds and mormonism's lies, and He is able to forgive that, and help you, but you must stop idolizing mere humans, as flds teaches you to do. flds clearly teaches that Christ's death on Calvary is not sufficient,which is the beginning and ongoing basis for all false religion. flds teaches that you must follow and yes, worship, mere mortal men- your "prophets." This is IDOLATRY.This is disobeying the first of the Ten Commandments."Thou shalt have not other gods before me." As long as you say various people in flds or any other cult or group is "perfect" you are contradicting the Bible itself.This is just the beginning of the SO MANY outrageous errors which are the basis of flds beliefs. flds beliefs are full of Bible-contradicting teachings.It is the LORD who YOU are arguing with by defending the flds. It is that simple. You have been lied to by virtually all flds leadership, including "uncle"Rulon and all the others. Maybe they had some likeable personal behaviors,most people do, but their flds teachings regarding many things were and are simply false. flds beliefs and most mormon beliefs are simply unbiblical and therefore should not be followed.The best thing you can do for yourself is get rid of all the mormon writings in your house and concentrate on reading only the Old and New Testament themselves from an evangelical source. (please,not from some other way-off bunch like Jehovah's Witnesses or something.) If you never stop defending mormon beliefs,you are on the wrong road for good, you will never arrive at what Jesus wants you to know.You will swim around in the maze and hopelessness of total confusion perpetrated by mormon teachings the rest of your life.

Anonymous said...

start simple- look at what Rulon much of taught about himself, and about endtime events- and compare that to what actually happened- time after time his predictions fell flat. They were false predictions. This is a clear sign of a false "prophet." It is the same with all other mormon leaders and "prophets." Their predictions simply did not come true time after time. Maybe once in a while one or another did, by coincidence, or by deceit on their part- Warren was especially good at crazy and elaborate deception and still is at times-people faithful to this stuff are really not doing themselves any favors at all. The Bible warns us in several places about such people, that they are simply "making merchandise" of others, and are on their way to perdition themselves, let alone being able to lead anyone else the right way.

Anonymous said...

at least you would not try to force me to live with a simply horrid man as what I was forced to live with......I really do not care a whit what other people believe as long as they leave me alone and do not try to force me to stay with people that put them selves on a pedistle and destroy me....you are right about most of the people in my church. They are filthy liars.........predjudice and horribly cruel to say the least.....and Jesus is my God and I do not care a whit who hates me here. they will not get to heaven trying to destroy me.....

Anonymous said...

Start simple,get one thing straight-"Christ died for our sins, according to the Scriptures." Plus- "for ALL have sinned, and come short of the glory of God." John the Baptist saw Christ,then said, "Behold the Lamb of God, who takes away the sin of the world." NTest: "He (Jesus)has suffered like we have, been tempted as we have been,in every way, YET without sin."- so He could sympathize with all our sorrows-He went through sorrows and trials Himself, YET He did so without sin.This is why Jesus could not have been a polygamist,as Joseph Smith tried to teach- God never authorized or commanded polygamy.Jesus very clearly condemned unfaithfulness to an EXCLUSIVE spouse. He taught extremely high standards and ONLY monogamous marriage.Jewish leaders tried to use questions about marriage and divorce to trip Him up one day,but they failed. Christ always reinforced the Ten Commandments He said, "I have not come to destroy the Law, but to fulfill it." He also said the essence of the Law is MERCY. Just read Old and New Testaments.This is what the thousands of years long Jewish animal sacrifice practice portrayed- innocent animals' blood shed til they died,to cover sins of the ancient Israelites,in a very precise regimen and ritual calendar. Sin is and always will be a very serious thing. That's why Jesus came,to give us the ONE perfect solution that would be total and permanent.Precise Hebrew and Greek translations for name Jesus Christ means "Savior Anointed One." He was given it before birth(also, Immanuel, meaning "God with us.") No other human has had this said in the same way about them prior to birth, or has done and said the things Christ did. To treat anyone else as if they are perfect like Jesus is idolatry, because the Scriptures say all have sinned EXCEPT the Lamb of God.(I want to add that "blood atonement" taught by early mormon leaders is totally unbiblical- human shed blood cannot pay for sin,only FAITH in the blood of Jesus Christ can do so.(I am not getting into capital punishment- that is a civil matter, not a religious practice.) Jesus provided the only acceptable sacrifice for sin where the Almighty is concerned.Jesus is the ONLY Lamb of God,ONLY one who did not ever once sin,according to Scripture. Giving worship to anyone but Him is idolatry.Christ died on the Cross of Calvary for your sin. You do not have to add anything to that to be at peace with God. Just accept what Christ did for you on the old rugged cross. (mormon teachings make people stumble because they're NOT taught they can have peace with God through Calvary's cross. They may "sort of" hear that now and then, but lds spends much more time/effort making members think they have to do all sorts of things to make it to God's home in glory-)flds non-stop teach polygamy-along with that they teach women have to be basically nothing but property to the men in the group. These things are TOTALLY unbiblical.Bible never once commands polygamy or any other human-designed lifestyle or traditional practice to be constantly adhered to without wavering, to please God or make it to heaven. Also N.Testament tells men they are to treat wives self-sacrificially-that is,a man should give himself for his WIFE (singular) and treat her tenderly. Many churches have over-looked this. We have heard the "submission of the wife" verses but many churches need to do a much better job of dealing with the MUTUAL submission verses regarding marriage,and the parts where man is to treat woman tenderly. ONE MAN ONE WOMAN marriage is the only type Jesus Himself approved of and taught at any time. N Testament instruction by Paul also says to treat all other females the man is not married to like mothers, sisters, daughters,etc,(not covet them as extra wives! It says "let each woman have her own husband and each man have his own wife to avoid immorality."

Anonymous said...

and what about Abrham, Issac and Jacob. They had many wives and family's and it is written that the Lord Comanded this. and yes it is written to not covet another man's wife.....and what the Lord gives a man is his......

Anonymous said...

Nowhere is it written that God commanded them to take multiple wives. They did this on their own, proving once again that ALL have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God. Yes, even the patriarchs.

Cap'n Fancher

Anonymous said...

I do not give a hoot about religious persecution. I worship a frog. will you kill me for that?

Anonymous said...

that last comment was for those that dislike religion. I love my religion. I really do not worship a frog

Anonymous said...

here is a question. Maybe there is a sycatrist out there who can answer the question. Here is a man who beats up his children. His wife sits there and watches him. The child tries to run away and she jumps up to hold the door so the child can not get away. And his other wife beats her children so baddly that they lay in bed with scars on there body for a long time. No one takes him to a doctor. No one does anything at all. What is the Mother's problem? And she does lie continuasly about her child and sabatage and destroy there life as long as they live. Why? and when they cry, she says there is not anything that you can do about it? why? why does she dislike her child so much? why?

Anonymous said...

I am not a psychiatrist but I know that usually, when women fail to protect their children or when they do not take steps to prevent their children from being abused it is because they are afraid of their husbands. In the example you mentioned above, the woman might have additional fears of what may happen to her if she speaks out about the abuse:

1. The police take no action and/or blame her for making trouble.

2. Community members become aware of the family problems, which brings shame on the family.

3. The woman may not know that if she leaves the husband, she has the right to take the children with her and to seek legal custody of her children which is usually awarded to the mother.

4. The prophet finds out and counsels the husband that he should get control of his family and gives suggestions on what the husband should do to "make his wife keep sweet."

5. If the woman complains too much about how she or her children are treated, she may be sent away to another community or to a mental institution, thus leaving her children at risk for more abuse.

Fortunately, there is help for women who want to escape from abuse. For more information, check out:

http://www.azag.gov/victims_rights/SafetyNetDirectory.pdf

Hope this helps. There are many of us out here who care and want to help.

Anonymous said...

I think you are right. I could have been protected if I had had some one that had known and cared.....Thank you....I think reporting abuse is good, but you are right. A person who reports abuse is slandered and trashed and the only way the cylcle will end is to leave alltogether and never look back. I do not mean leave what a person believes and holds dear, but the people abusing them and My Mother needs counsoling and I shall avoid her until she gets help. I had a man die not very long ago that was abusive all his life and no one did anything. As he died he looked me in the eyes and told me he was so sorry. so sorry he said over and over; so sorry, so sorry......

Anonymous said...

I am grateful for people who care. I have to keep things in perspective. My Father beat me so bad when I was little I could not get up. My Mother held the door so I could not leave. She beat me all her life. I did ask her yesterday why she did pound on me and beat me. I had been to a doctor and had an opporation and she pounded me on this cut. I did ask her why yesterday and she did tell me that I was out of control. That is why she had to beat me and slap me and beat me. I did ask her why her beating me and screaming at me, and hitting me was me being out of control. I looked in her eye's and seen the look. I was her it. I was not even a person to her. She stood there and told me that there was not anything I could do about her abuse and called the cops on me. I did walk away. I did walk away and never will I forget that look in my Mother's eyes and I know why my Father married her......Thank you for caring...If you see me and I say I have no Mother you know why. I will extract her from my mind....I can not deal with her or this memory any longer....thank you those who care. I did tell My Mother before I did leave that I would not ever do to her what she done to me..... I gave her to the Lord that night. Now I need to remove her memory.....

Anonymous said...

and that man that did scream at me. those two men did tell me that I already knew I was the one no one wanted. They told me that they already knew i was not wanted. I know it. the man I married said I was the one no one wanted and he was going to destroy my life. He was right. At least in my little world of Mother and men who destroy what the Lord gives them. I was the one no one wanted.......

Anonymous said...

I guess when a man or anyone puts some one in jail that they did think loved them it changes them. forever. it changes them. to see how horrid people treat each other. I was just wondering in theory. I guess there is a whole world out there of barbairans. I just am not used to people being treated like they are. but it is written that the people of saints are being treated just like they was in the days right before the coming of Christ. and when the earth quake came in his day they did weep and houl in the spirit world for they had sacrificed thier souls to hurt other's. and that is how it will be in our day. the ones who destroy will weep and houl at the loss of their soul and the persicuted will be rejoicing even if they are killed.

Anonymous said...

you are right about that too. woman usually get their children. I was given soul custody of my children and another man did kidnap them and rape me and steal that child behind my back. now I shall get legal help....for a judge was once very kind to me. I am sure he will be again......thank you for your advice. and I think you will not see me sad again......

Anonymous said...

and these lawyer's have given me one great big, two aces......for ever.....thank you Arizona, and Utah and Texas...in spite of these abusive men you have given me three Aces.....

Anonymous said...

I understand that your mother used a wire coat hanger for the beatings.

Anonymous said...

I think I shall just start using my Aces.

Anonymous said...

I want you to understand that I have been working with my Mother's for a long time. We have made some progress. We shall continue to make progress. That is how it is. I shall take care of my Mother. She will get well.

Anonymous said...

one of my Mother's used a hanger. My Mother used a plastic dipper that stung like crazy. and she used her fist a lot. now, she acts like she is justified and when we come up in the reserection she will have to account for her.....I never did go around hitting people or stealing and these people Idalized the one's who did. but one day they will have to be honest....

Anonymous said...

I was shot in the head last week. I never realized until last week how professional of a Killer, Willard Marian Barlow, Shelly Gene Cooke, Marvin Roy Cooke, Richard Henery Cooke, Sam Barlow, and STephan Barlow were until last week. First they sabatage and destroy all the woman they can, then the media soars in and edit's every crime against an inacent man and then the men shoot the woman.
and the government writes up a report to cover up murder, unless there is enough money to hire a good lawyer and some one cares about the woman.......they have to pick nobody's like me.......me and my daughter's......Who pulled the triger....maybe it was their securtiy David or Dale Barlow.....I never realized until last week what great professional Murder's are harbored here......some one said I did not have any power. I know it. I never once resisted or faught back. I am alive, because Jesus did not let me die, in spite of these Murder's........

Anonymous said...

will there be no end to willard Barlow's and Richard Cooke's deception? Will there be no end to the things that they decieved us in? I am grateful that the Lord is the judge. Will there be no end to there deception? I already posted a notice that anything my children owe before they are twenty one is owed by Willard Marion Barlow. He is a kidnaper and a thief and a liar. And he beats his children. How about it Shelly Cooke and Willard Barlow, will you pay for your lies and deception? will you pay for Kidnapping my children and stealing from me....and us?

Anonymous said...

I mean before the resarection day. What about it Laurie Allen if you sink my ship will you rejoice in your lies and deception? will it glorify you any? or will anyone try to make the guilty account. I know that the people targeting us, love Murder and all. so, will you finish killing me, or will the guilty people be stopped?

Anonymous said...

The reason I post every thing here is because a lot of men in my church read this blog more faithful than the Book of Mormon. I will say this; the only thing anyone in my church know's about me is nothing. And as far as what they think they do not know anything about it. Willard Barlow, Richard Cooke, Sam Barlow, Stephan Barlow, Shelly Cooke, and company know what they done, and no matter what happens to me they will carry their guilt forever and ever and ever and ever.....one day Willard Barlow will have to tell what he did to us...one day.....one day...it may be in the reserection day, but one day he will have to tell the truth........I am certian he has no capability's of telling the truth, This Willard Barlow, but one day the Lord will open his brain like a reel and he will have himself and his lies forever and ever and ever and ever and ever..........and I shall be free from the nit.....

Anonymous said...

mark Shirtliff, I have a court order, ordering Shelly Cooke to pay me child support, keep insurance on his children and Willard Barlow was his partner in crime....Why do you not go after these two men and make them pay the state back what it has paid out to take care of my children and violate a court order. Willard Marion Barlow kidnapped my children. Why do you not have him pay his debt..and when they are done paying me, I shall pay their debt; or just collect for them and pay their debts......

Anonymous said...

What do you think, Shelly Cooke, will they murder me like they did Donna? Will they murder me like they did Donna? I wonder if you ever have a bit of sorrow, for what you did to my daughter. I wonder if Willard Barlow has a bit of guilt for what he did to my daughter. What about it Dr. Roger's, do you have a bit of guilt for trying to murder my daughter? is there no one that cared? is every one so hard harted that they sit by and watch the most beautiful child be murdered and the men walk free why I am harrassed half to death.......is there no justace in this country....only the inacent are targeted and the grossest men walk free....It was dockumented and you all can skirt around truth as long as you like, but I still will not be guilty and the men who are will never see the face of Christ....for he is just and murder's can not go into the celestial kingdom.........and Lyle Jeffs you had better think very carfully if you are protecting murder's and liars....What do you think God will say to you in the reserection? do you also want my daughter's blood on your hands????????if you can not tell by looking who is guilty then you better get down on your knee's and pray.......or will you have David or Dale Barlow shoot me in the head again?

Anonymous said...

but then, I did not see who did shoot me. I know Lyle Jeffs is perfect. That I know....it appear's that anyone who talks about these murder's get shot and their children targeted.....Better not tell the Truth about Sam Barlow, Stephan Barlow, Willard Barlow, Shelly Cooke, Richard Cooke, they may kill me for telling the truth; but then again, my daughter was murdered by them...and they will forever carry her blood upon them...for it cry's unto the Lord, with the rest of the martered saints.........and I can be hated, loved or mocked....it will not change the truth that Willard Marion Barlow is a murder...........and my daughter walking with Jesus is a witness and nathan will soon go to make a report on the rest of these abuser's......and as God is my witness, I ask for streanth to forgive and walk with him forever, for the murdered have a great glory, but the murder's never see Jesus again.........no matter who you are.......so if I am to be murdered, I may as well be happy until that time I cross over...and to those that pull the trigger...next time do it looking into my eye's and the Lord will record your murder's....forever and ever....and ever........

Anonymous said...

for Willard Barlow has tried every stratagie to kill me for ten years....and hired every soul he could get to hurt me that would...and my blood is upon his hands with my daughter's...........and truth will stand forever.........for ever deed is recorded in heaven.....at least I will be with my murdered daughter's. For Willard Hired there deaths....him and Shellly g. Cooke....and truth will stand forever.....and ever and ever........

Maymunah said...

Any body know anything about a woman's body found in a pond in the creek?

Anonymous said...

Ya right!! What a liar

Anonymous said...

I am an isolated believer in the fullness of the gospel.
I post here rarely, though I read the thread often. I would like to wish everyone a beautiful Easter. As I age, I draw close to my Savior. I pray for those away from loved ones at this season of renewal. I will have 23 immediate family members with me on Sunday. Two new grandchildren to smile at. Life is good.

Anonymous said...

there is not one thing worth reading on this blog
not one......I shall never look at it again.....

Anonymous said...

Good bye Laurene

Anonymous said...

Ruth? Someone shot you in the head ? When? Did you report it? are you in a safe place now?

Anonymous said...

I must admit, Sam Barlow and company are the greatest, best skilled Murder's around.

Mari said...

Wow.

I just spent the last few days or so reading through the entries of this blog. It's been good reading.

Please don't slow down now. I'd like to continue knowing what is going on and what people think.

Thanks!

Anonymous said...

You actually like what we think? Do not slow down? I thought every one would be so tired of my talk by now.......here is how it is today. I like this place. I have found love in my heart. I have found my smile. And I have given my smile to a thousand people today.........

Stamp said...

Ruth

Hope all is well, my prayers are with you.

I was in WA wlmrt a while ago and was thinking about you.

Anonymous said...

I am grateful for all the people who care. It would be real nice if every one left judgment to the Lord.....And then that statement leaves me to forgive and let him judge.......I think every one forgot that it is not the cruelest and the meanest that wins. It is the one's who do right.......Thank You. I always wonder at what I hear today, for when I was shot in the head this man came out rejoicing that the Lord uses what ever means he can. thinking it was a great thing I was shot. I did go home and reflect upon every man who has thrown his wife into a court case. none of them ever stay together and they did not stay in our church.....it is all sad to me, these arguments and I am grateful for prayer.......I need to do better.......

Anonymous said...

I shall tell you this much;j every time some one left my church and said they were cheated, I did not believe them, but after what they done to me, I am certain that this battle was not about honesty, but who ever is the biggest bully's. I suppose that is why they have the law suits and lose time after time, after time, for all that money could have built thousand's of City's. and I never thought the day would come when all these people would call the cop's over the littlest tinyiest thing, just to destroy me......Just because no one here cared about the truth.....but the truth is written with the lord, so I forgive these people who make destroying lifes their religion.........and make no mistake about it David Barlow, and Dale Barlow would rejoice if I had died.......and it is written in heaven.....

Anonymous said...

And just in case anyone really wants to know, I did tell the Lord I wanted the streanth that my daughter had, when they put her down. She never complained and at the end, Richard Cooke did come to take her photo, so he could hang it on his wall, as his trophy. He took a photo of her all bent and twisted from his drug, and I was watching her. I did not know at that time that he had drugged her. I was tired and watching my daughter die, the most agonizing death and I felt totally helpless and she did smile the greatest smile at him and died...........I did tell the Lord I wanted to be that strong. I want to forgive these people no matter what they do to me........I am grateful that you care, and I shall not ever feel sad that I go........It is a pity they did not get their celibration, for their gun did not hit the target to destroy, just to hurt.....and it is upon their hands.....and I am required to forgive..........So they can have their war with out me.........They all told me that I was hated, but when I wrote it to their leader they all denied that they hated me, so they play games.....and i have no desire to walk out there with nothing ever again. I shall stay here and let them do what they want. I just only told the cops down town, I wanted what they do to me documented, but I will accept no help to save my life. I had to get the thing out of my head, but to ask the Saint's to help save my soul, would have been asking them too much....Thank you all you people who fed me through the most horrid experience of my entire life.....but I am safe right now, and I only say thank you for your thoughts of kindness and prayers.........

Anonymous said...

I remember my daughter's smile more than anything. What Shelly Gene Cooke did to her the day I brought her home from the Hospital, that fratured her head, I may not know until I get to heaven, but he know's. Was it a doctor that helped him, like the doctor that tried to abort her, or did he work alone? They and the Lord know. I suppose I shall have to wonder and remember her smile, until I get to heaven to find out the entire truth......This much i know, gossip is terrible and so are men like Shelly, Richard, Willard, and the rest who knew the truth and would not confess and take responsibiltiy......but I have turned my head away from them and think of her smile.....She was the most beautiful child. just like the rest and how terrible the day I met Willard, Richard, and Shelly.....and may I forget them. Forgiving is easy, because they will go into dissalusion, but to forget is not as easy as forgiving..........but this man I was talking to did tell me that he would not beleive anything with out some one with athourity telling him, and I did speak to him about what he did know of his own and he did confess the weakness and sin of one of them, and I did turn in great sorrow at men who know, look the other way and wait for one with athourity to tell them what they seen.....I am sure that when they get to heaven, Jesus will tell them and he has the most athourity........

Anonymous said...

When each person stands before Christ, they will either be known to Him as His, or not His. Sounds to me like an awful lot of folks do things "in His Name" out there, who will hear Him say, "Depart from Me, I never knew you." Just like all over the rest of the world,some hearts are right with God, and some are not right with Him. He cannot be fooled, as human judges can be fooled.His hands are not tied by any imperfect law, or messed up legal system.He is the One and Only True and Righteous Judge of every single one of us on earth. So these men (and sometimes women) who think they are better than the next person? or stronger? more this? more that? Indeed, Ruth- the tables will be turned in front of the throne of Jesus for many. May God bless you,Ruth, "real good," every day,until you see His wonderful,smiling face.Yes, He is the Righteous Judge. We all need His mercy- and those that never really ask for it?Think they do not need it? He knows who they are.

Anonymous said...

yes, indeed. Thank you.......my goal is to be filled with this Love. The pure Love of Christ. I have to do good and think good, always.....thank you......Yes, Jesus is the Keeper of the gate......

Mari said...

Miss Ruth,

I've come to admire your strength and willingness to have faith so much. I wish you the best and please know that someone in Colorado keeps you in her prayers.

Mari

Anonymous said...

Thank you very much. I appreciate prayer's. You maybe can not comprhend how much that means to me. You can not even imagine how much that means to me. Right now, I need all the streanth I can get. for I am not winning. Inside my heart I fail every day. Every time this people come out and critazise me and try to make me fail, and blame me for what they do to me, I fail a little bit more in my heart. and I assure you I am more than grateful for your prayer's.....

Mari said...

Miss Ruth,

If I had away to fix all the pain in the world, I would wave the magic wand and have it done.

Unfortunately, all I can do is keep you in my thoughts and prayers. At night before I sleep, and in the morning when I wake up, you're in my prayers.

My family strongly believes in the power of prayers and candles. Candles say the prayers for you while you're off living the life you've been given, and believe me, I have a candle with your name on it.

So not to worry, if prayers can help, then I'm on it all the way.

Mari

Anonymous said...

That is so very sweet. My life has begun to change a great deal.....Your prayers and mine....Thank you very kindly...for prayer's have power. I shall light a candle and put it in my window........For I know the Lord answer's prayer, and kindness is always rewarded.....sometime, somewhere..........Thank you.....

Anonymous said...

Jesus said...Matthew 18:10 Take heed that ye despise not one of these little ones; for I say unto you, That in heaven their angels do always behold the face of my Father which is in heaven.

Jesus said...Luke 17:2 It were better for him that a millstone were hanged about his neck, and he cast into the sea, than that he should offend one of these little ones.

Anonymous said...

I was taught this when I was young. Today I did see a man with cross bows. I am shocked that our people have these things. sometimes I forget that there is a great battle being waged over this land and every one is very kind to me, but it is just a lol in the air. I can feel it. No one likes their evil's cast into the air. But this scripture is very true. The reason it is better is because the person doing evil loses their soul. Uncle Rulon used to tell these men to come out like men. He called them cowards. and they are. They come at a person behind their back, with great illusions. I will be glad when they are done with their day. Mine and their's for I will be crowned with glory and they will be stopped from evil. I know things happen every where, and I am saddened by evil......

Anonymous said...

Ruth, every one of us with an awareness of Jesus as the only Perfect One knows we all fail a lot down here on planet earth. But He? ah, He never does. Amen? That's the unspeakable joy of being His. The greatest thing, by His grace alone,is a life lived loving Him one day at a time. It's "Sweeter as the Years Go By" as a great old hymn puts it. All the tears ultimately have an end. Jesus is always at work, accomplishing things we cannot yet see, far more wonderful than we can picture right now.

Anonymous said...

Ruth- isn't it great just talking about Jesus?? There are lots of people that love Him very much who are your brothers and sisters in Him-don't forget!

Anonymous said...

Ruth do you believe in the Jesus who is the brother of Lucifer as taught in Mormon literature

or the Jesus who is the only one God come to earth in form of a baby, lived, died on a cross, shed his blood for your sins and then was resurrected and now preparing a place in heaven for you?

Anonymous said...

I believe that Jesus is the creator of heaven and earth. I believe he built this earth to give all people happiness, and has put all things upon the earth for the great joy of men and woman. I believe in life after this earth, and I believe that Lucifer fell from heaven because he wanted to force and dominate all men. I believe that Jesus fell from heaven, because if he had not come down to earth I could not have been born here by his great loving hand. I also believe that a record is kept of every deed and thought and that when a person leaves this realm of life, they take with them a perfect record and they are put in a place with people they are like, and all I really have to worry about is obtaining that perfect love that Jesus had for every soul and become perfect in love, until I am crowned a queen in the Celestial Kingdom, where no man does hurt or betray or try to decieve. In a kingdome that no sorrow ever enter's and I believe that Jesus is the Keeper of the gate in the Celestial Kingdom and no deciet, can, nor will ever pass by him into that kingdom and that leaves me with great sorrow and weeping for the souls that will never abide in this great happiness and glory..........and Jesus had the power of the reserection and died for us all, so we could be reserected......and he took upon him this mission.....and Lucifer I know not........

Anonymous said...

This is the reason I am hated. The one's who try to cover their sin's by trying to prove I am stupid, for I seen their evil, think if they prove I am stupid they will not have to make an account. The one's who think I lifted a sword against Uncle Warren, feel like they are justified in putting me in the grave. The one's who think I love him, feel like they are justified in persicuting me for loving him, and those who think I am stupid feel justified in trying to decieve me and play pranks on me; and the people like Laurie Allen feel like they are going to sink the ship of religion, because they do not believe at all in Jesus. and so I am attacted. and I am grateful I beieve in perfect love and the great happiness of the celestial kingdom and I shall be grateful and glad when I leave this world of persicution and dwell in great happiness and joy, with my savior........and the rest of my family will one day have to save their own souls, and look at themselves, but they use me as an excuse so they do not have to see themselves at all.........

Anonymous said...

and it is interesting because the Chief of Police here did allow men to get away with crime, and the County did come in and correct the error. They may destroy these paper's that portray what they did, but none the less it is truth, and so here is a family who has their pride hurt and so they do all they can to make me look stupid. Like the son of the brother of the chief of police, said I was stalking him, because I shop in the store, when in reality he is a prankster and making fun of other's. I do not dislike him for his fault. In Page they have a public posting telling about the deceit of their cops....policemen are just that, men with a job. so, it has broken down to family quarells too.......but in the end, only people who are honest are happy. I should not have gotten into their argument.....people who are decietful have a long hoe to row, to keep their stuff hidden.......so it is......That is why Jesus has compassion for all souls, and it is better to go before the Lord and save your own soul, than it is to try to cover up deceit and try to do other peoples work for them....an example is a great gift to have.........

Anonymous said...

and on the other hand, there is a group of people who are just as sweet and lovely as anyone on earth can be, who are not trying to keep anything hidden, for they have no shame and nothing to hide. and they truly are beautiful and lovely..........and they are what is special about my life.....and also life itself is great and good and beautiful........

Anonymous said...

So, there is this man, who has been stalking me. He has heard all this gossip about me, and had the cops follow me for five years to catch me doing bad. I never steal. I never do anything to injure other's, and when other people out-side my church like me, then he just gets to stalking me with smiles and comfort. He destroys this relationship, because he is jelous. What should I do? He did tell me that I am good for him. That is what makes me hate being a woman. Men can be cruel. I shall never be his girl. I hate him more inside everyday, and i forgive him too. I forgive because I want to be with the Lord. If I call the cops they would only make fun of me, unless I complain to the county. then their war gets bigger and they blame me for all their hatred of me.......so, then I begin to wish I was leaving this world sooner than later, then they all make fun of me, because I should love life. and I truly wish I had known some saints......not just the joke of an abusive family.......

Anonymous said...

At least I know how my daughter felt when she died. When Richard Cooke gave her that fatal drug, like he forced upon me, but I lived, at least I know how she felt when she died. I know that no one would miss me if Richard Cooke had succeeded in putting me in the grave too, like he did her. That I know for certain, no one would have cared or missed me.......When Kathy Bistline was here she said the same thing about abuse and died shortly after. I know how she felt too....now, I know and I am not talking ever again no matter what.......

Anonymous said...

I will say this one last thing; our foe's have rejoiced when our sorrow's they seen..................How grateful I am for Jesus and the next life.......I know that my redemer lives, what comfort this sweet sentance gives........redemer of Isreal our only delight.....

Anonymous said...

and I would say this much, I am sorry that I critazised any one. If all my life was worth to my friends, is how they treated me, then it matter's not. I only have one regret. That is that, that b.b. they dug out of my head was not a twenty two, and I would be out of here.........too, bad they did miss their mark....I wonder why the Lord let me live. I wonder why? to be mocked, and mocked.....I was not anything to anyone...........not for real.......right Heber?

Anonymous said...

and to Sam Barlow, who destroyed records so he would not get caught; that does not mean you are not guilty. Do you suppose a paper did cover your sin's? if only it was that easy, hu? if only it was that easy? but my daughter still lives with Jesus...just as I will no matter what you do. It was life that bothered you the most any how? right? When my daughter died, I did not think her sorrow and pain would ever end. But she is with Jesus now, in spite of you.....and I will be too...one day...one day.......one day........no matter what you do.....so I was hated.....Hated by these people here; just like you boasted about........and it does not matter any more.......not a whit.....not what you think of me. I know what you did, and so does she...so does Nate.....and in the end Willard Barlow, you will have to make an account of your abuse too.....to Jesus. You can only hide that long.....and I wonder why the Lord let me live to ever know you......And I am deeply sorry that I lived through your attact too......but one day you will have to tell the truth......for your brain will be un-wound. All I have to do is forget you and your horrid memory...........

Anonymous said...

so no one could tell by looking I was not what Willard Barlow said. no one could tell. not at all. I will give you this much credit Gary Engles, you was right about this people. They did hate me. They hated me and let abusers walk.......So, I will never hate you no matter what they say about you.....They did hate me, just LIke Willard said.......and no one will ever enter my heart again. No one but Jesus....for he cared......

Anonymous said...

I was studying the teachings of Jesus and it says that no Prophet has ever been accepted in his own house. for it is written that they said, "is this not the son of ????" and I put question marks there for it is the same for all men......for the faithful always see and the un-believer's never see.....so the great conflict arose...and John Y. Barlow is waiting for his sons....and it is written....for-ever and ever and ever.....

Mari said...

Miss Ruth,

I lit a cyber candle for you.

Here's the link.

http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/message.cfm?l=eng&cid=10631670

Mari

Ruth said...

thank you

Anonymous said...

Here is a poem i will send back to all those who like niceness....'
One kind word,
is all it took,
to fill the heart with joy.
One kind deed that was needed,
gladdened up the soul.
One kind thought helped turn sorrow, at the door.....
and one glad day; mission complete,
I turned my heart to Jesus.

Anonymous said...

that was very nice of you. I am not homeless like I was. I have a house and a few friends. that was very kind of you....gratitude....I shall begin....I am grateful I have the Lord. I am grateful that I have my life. I am grateful for the spring blossoms. I am grateful I knew my children. I am grateful my daughter loved me.....I am grateful for this web page you have directed me too. i am grateful we do not stay for ever in this world......gratitude......that is a joy......

Anonymous said...

Amen to all those

uncaduff said...

A slight alteration of the punctuation in Hebrews 13:8, describes this blog very well.

Jesus Christ! the same yesterday and forever!
uncaduff.

Anonymous said...

Some one put some anti-Mormon literature on my door-step. I do not really ever get into religious debates, but it appears that other's do. Why I will never be a Mormon; First they stood by why men tried to destroy me. Then they did pretend like nothing happened. Second, oh, maybe I made a mistake.....What religion are you Gary Engles? First, you covered up abuse and targeted the inacent; then you did every thing you could to continue, ignoring evidence and destroying it, to target inacent people and let guilty people walk free, so What religion are you Gary Engles? maybe it was not Mormon's attacking me, so I threw this literature in the garbage.......Three cheer's for truth........for truth will prevail.............and no man can get past Jesus with a lie in his hands, for he is the keeper of the gate...........

Anonymous said...

for a people who sit in their high chair's in my church, and I am talking about the Fundamental Mormon's; tis a pity for a people who boast that truth will prevail, it is a pity that they did not care a whit about truth.......

Anonymous said...

and here is a quote for what they was supposed to stand for; It is easy in the world to live after the world's opinion;it is easy in solitude to live after our won; but the great man is he who, in the midst of the crowd, keeps with perfect sweetness the independence of his character.

Anonymous said...

I am talking about the one's who did not care about truth. Those are the one's I am talking about. Not, the one's who are honest....just those that did not care a whit for truth........tis' a pity, and this quote is supposed to say;

It is easy in the world to live after the world's opinion; It is easy in solitude to live after our own; but the great man is he who, in the midst of the crowd, keeps with perfect sweetness, the independence of his character.

Anonymous said...

and to the people in my government who did care, and defend me, I dedicate that song on the Texas Polygamy blog, Truth Will Prevail, the one about true American Hero's........I dedicate that song to you...........

Anonymous said...

In heaven these people will meet someone they hated and persicuted. They will meet someone who went through what they did with no friends, no media support and not glory. Their tear's were never heard or seen.......and then they will weep agian, for the TRUE AMERICAN HERO'S that they persicuted and hated, before they were persicuted and hated, and maybe they will throw a cloak of charity for the invisible TRUE AMERICAN HERO'S they never seen or heard and whom they hated......and may the Lord continue to deliver them, from bondage and perdjudice....and hatred......

Anonymous said...

and may my God blind their eye's from the truth, until they walk into heaven; knowing they loved to hate me....For he gives all men their glory...and they chose to hate me, and persicut me with out even giving me a lawyer. No one to hear me. No one to represent me....no one to care.......so, they are delivered up to the illusion they wanted to see.....until we rise in the reserection............and the love can be given to the children....maybe they will not have to go through what I did....and may they become true saints indeed......For I am not united with what they did to me......not with my country, nor my people...I stood for Justace for all.......not just justace for those that had the greatest show....If they kill me it is their choice. to be martered for their sins is something I will rejoice in when they are done.........but next time, let them put a twenty two in their guns...........Make it quick and easy.........no question's asked...no one to care.......right....until they come up before the Lord..........

Anonymous said...

For the greatest thing Uncle Rulon ever taught was to leave Judgment to the Lord. Judgment is mine, sayeth the Lord....and It is required that we forgive all men, and then they raised a sword and tried to destroy me...They tried to destroy me for the lies of men......and if they scream for Justace the Lord may give it to them......Justace for their cruelty........There cruelty and hardheartedness, and persicution; against the people they never spoke to, or cared about.......Judged on a tale in the wind, with no truth to back it up....gossip and lies.........and in heaven they will see their own selves and maybe try to redeem themselves and leave judgement to the Lord....For they have robbed me......These stranger's.......who know nothing about me.......and I have forgiven them....Judgement is the LOrds, and he will repay........Just as he is.........may they love their children..I mean truly love them.......with the Pure Love of God, as Uncle Rulon taught.....what they stole from me, can not be given back.....but i forgive and they can love the children now....Teach them to love and not hate and persicute....for my life is not any of their bussiness.....those that hated me and sought to destroy me.......They can not give back what they stole.....and it is recorded in heaven....and i have forgiven, and may my days be shorter than longer.....for I was the one no one wanted....like the boy called it.......

Anonymous said...

Robert Knudson has continued stalking me. He did tell me that I was good for him. He will never have me. No matter what he does. wonder how many more men will stalk me. He thinks I am stupid and thinks no one cares about me. I am shocked that these are the men of our church.....I wonder if I was just a notch on their belt...the girls they destroyed and if they go home and rejoice that they had the power to hurt.....

Anonymous said...

It is weird to watch people who have a semi normal life.......I wonder if he hired some one to shoot me....

Anonymous said...

Robert Knusdon's Father was Jack Knudson. I heard he was a man who abused his children. Maybe Robert Knudson is kinky and does not want anyone to know. I has some one else tell me that he was coming on to them.....I wonder what it would take to get a kinky man to quit stalking me, and be able to shop in his store with out being harrassed.

Anonymous said...

He wanted me to go and pacify the cops from the county when they came so he would not get into trouble and then he wanted me to tell him something for his consience so he could sleep at night. I am not a Doctor, and I am not a preacher, and I am not his girl.....and I am sick of him stalking me.......

Anonymous said...

I truly wonder why I ever thought I was in the Lord's church. I am fairly shocked at the way these men act....I wonder how many true Christian's there are in the world for real......I shall have to avoid the store......

Anonymous said...

I wonder where the men who would never cheat or decieve are. I wonder where they are. How long will the Lord let us suffer under a decietful deal....I wonder where the honest men are.......

Anonymous said...

I complain too much........

Anonymous said...

Ruth

Your sister was in the news for a few years and then she vanished. What happened to Laurene?

Anonymous said...

oh, laurene. No one liked her telling the truth about what my father did. She spoke on national telivision. Keep in mind that he did not abuse all his children. i did not know he did her. she had not ever spoken about it before.....one of my sister's that he did not abuse was angry because she talked about her father and thought it made her look bad. She went to jail for a little bit of time for running away from a court supeona....she was called to testify...she did not stay in jail very long. she was given a house and is still in it. She came out and told me that I could not go to Val's funeral, because it was a matter of principle and apostates could not go to the church house.........funny hu? how men can hurt and injure, for I was not guilty at all......her children are being taken care of by one of Val's brother's who thought he had a right to come out and harrass me....Lyle Jeffs said he hated me and sicked the cops on me. They went home, for they had no charges against me, except the lies of liars in their church who are in the process of being caught...and the thing Lyle Jeffs does not know, is I do not have to cater to anyone...he hated me...and he gives who he wants a place if they flatter him.....she is fine and fancy.....all dolled up......just like she was when she used Flora Jessop..........and the people in cane beds.........they tried to force me to leave by harrassment and I stayed........nice sister....I am waiting to see them all get lifted up, by trying to destroy me....So far their City still remains on earth.......no exaulted saints being called up to the City of Enoch...just the practicle joke upon them.....I do not mind if they think they can get to heaven killing me...i am waiting to see them do it....

Anonymous said...

and Val is the one who called the media. He thought they would save him and ended up confessing his sins too. I did get in the middle to save him public humiliation and looked like an idiot....I should have stayed out of sight and let him confess..........then they gave Val a hero's funeral.....I wonder if Lyle Jeffs will ever be interested in serving God, or the theifs and liars of his church........One day he will meet Jesus face to face and confess that Jesus is God, and he will tell me he is sorry for all he did to destroy my life...........

Anonymous said...

I am grateful that they take care of her...but I know that the only law they have had in my church for a long time, is do what I say or I will punish you, starve you, throw you out, for I am big, and they have forgotton that God is the judge and no matter what they do or say they can not change truth...Lyle Jeffs is not My God......He is a man who defended crimnal's and punished me for not submitting to them, and one by one they are caught and he had no right to do what he did to me...then when the men are caught they throw them out too...nice church. I can not believe I ever even thought they were Christian's........but one day they will care about me too. One day I will not be forced to submitt to abuse by men who claim to worship God......for they do not live what they teach.....they are cruel...Laurene submitted and is fancied up.......and I do not mean to the laws of God......Force and abuse is not the laws of God.....neither is punishment....and Lyle Jeffs will owe me a lot in heaven...along with the rest of them......let Laurene have the money, the house, and the flattery........I will be crowned a queen in heaven........and Lyle Jeffs will have to say I am sorry.........and I refuse to become all the gossip they spead about me.........

Anonymous said...

I just told the people who are Lyle Jeffs friends to let Gary Engles kill me, since Richard Cooke and Willard Barlow failed......Gary Engles was not real willing to do that, so I still have my freedom in spite of them.........allthough the fire department tried real hard to get me into an argument today.....I just walked away....I guess they will have to find a new guini pig to harrass..........nice frieds I have....I am glad they are not my enamies.........

Anonymous said...

I thought that Laurene was a apostate? After all that she did when she was out, getting pregnant
and planning to marry a gentile.

Anonymous said...

apostates are people who come out openly and confess their sins. Laurene was forced out and thought she had no choice...Just like when she was beat and choked half to death and could not figure out what was normal when she was small.....I knew all along what was normal, and my father was not....he beat me with his belt and the answer was still no.....Besides she is not apostate...you have to know truth to turn from truth...You have to know Jesus and willinly turn from him...All she ever knew was traitors and apostates, and that man who came out and harrassed me that took her in is no saint....so in reality it is all apostates in church trying to be the big power daddies...........and I aint one of their cootsies..........they told me what they thought when I asked them for help in the begining, and if they could not tell Richard Cooke was a creep and I was not a sinner, then we had no chance anyway.....Laurene will be ok....she has her house and money now.......let it be...she will join val soon enough......he is waiting for her, so they can continue their argument.....and I was not anything to them, so I do not have to worry about what they all say when I die......it could not have been worse than when I was alive......nice friends. I am glad they are not my enamies....those cops would have not submitted their own vidio and gotton fired, if they had been my enamies.......right Gary Engles?......they would have just closed the account, sealed the file and thought they were cleaverly hidden, until they went to the spirit world, and had to face jesus face to face, and are cast into outer darkness to their own place that no saint ever goes and they can not cross into heaven....so enjoy the little lies why you can...time does not stay forever and all men have to close the day of their probation...every single soul.......

Anonymous said...

besides no one in my church reads the blogs or watches the news or the films that people make. When a person is kicked out, they are no longer talked about.....Laurene just told them she always did what Val said...I would be in their church still if there were no liars there. Unfortunately the man I married is a great liar and deceiver. He is a traitor on a pedistle....When Richard Cooke was here, he did tell my family I could not come home, because I was a bad apostate...Then he hired a man to assult me, so it looked nice to my family and then came out to ask if he could help me and my boyfriend...How do I know he did not hire laurene's boy frind too, just to make it look real.....and right after I got screamed at because they did not let apostates in the house, he was kicked out of the church. And the men who did teach me, are all kicked out, except Uncle Rulon, Uncle Roy, and Uncle Fred..........only apostates have ever tried to teach me anyhow, so it is like the devil trying to tell me he can save me, and has the right to rob me and throw me out.....Lyle Jeffs knows nothing about me, and relies heavily upon appostates to counsil him......and they just loved Richard and Willards lie that I was bad...ate it up like candy.....and they could not tell by looking at me that I was not the creepy men....so I did tell the Lord tonight that the sin is not mine....These men who cleaverly and flatterinly decieve Lyle Jeffs so they can have more victum's.......He never cared a whit about me anyhow and can not rob me of my soul......he can only hate me until the reserection day and then he will weep because he was easily flattered and fooled and hated me....because he could have protected Laurne from the begining if he had cared...but he never and I never let the Idea into my head that he would. He hated me and loved the flattering lies of men, so that is what he got......may the Lord forgive him for being easily decieved....by horribly cruel hardharted men.........I forgive him......

Anonymous said...

besides, I did tell these people who did trust our own country that Texas was a great state, and they did think they may be protected and went there and was raided by our enamies, who love lies........Flora and company........their lies...so you can never be sure you know who to trust, but because of the blessings of the Lord, the country men did rally and return the children...I seen a few great american hero's.......A few.....

Anonymous said...

I listen to the singing of the Texas raid people. The sweet song of Liberty, and I did read what Uncle Rulon said about the only power a man has a right to hold is through love and long suffering, love....love that is the word he used..if only it had been that way...if only.....Uncle Rulon loved me, but none of his men or people did...I guess some did. They told me that today, and I believed them.....they were not the men who try to cover up their sin's that told me that though. it was the ones that honestly did........and their are some people in the government who honestly cared....I mean for real.....but not the tratiors who betrayed me...they never cared.....

Anonymous said...

Laurene must be the ultimate of betrayal!

Anonymous said...

The only thing I think is weird, is that they give these creepy men more power than a king. More power than a bishop, and more power than the Prophet......and they cover up abuse and toot their own horn.....That is the ultimate of betrayal....Laurene was nothing to them..Just another notch on their belt, they tried to destroy......I am glad she stays away from me. Her, Marie, and Rebecca.....

Anonymous said...

Besides that it took my Mother's until i was seventeen to figure out something was wrong with my father....I sat and listened to my two older sister's cry and cry because of what he did to them. and it took the men in my church about sixty years to figure out something was wrong. With Richard Cooke who was the perfect epitomy of grossness, it took them until he was sixty two or so to figure out something was wrong, and he was booted from the church. They took a woman from another man and did give her to Willard. She is supposed to be a retard like me...That is what they all said about him...so the way I see it, it will take Lyle jeffs another fifty years of harassing me and critasing me until they figure out something was wrong with Willard Barlow too...like he is the grossest man too...only filth comes out of his mouth, but since it is filth and lies about me, he is a hero, on a pedistle....course none of them ever talk to me to know.....nice church I have...it is a good thing they are not my enamies.....I talked to the man who did beat me up yesterday. I did tell him he had to undo this. he was following me around....He did tell me that he did not know what I was talking about.....I guess being liar's is just taught to them...I suppose because they think I am stupid it is ok to lie to me, and no one will know the difference..........I wonder if he beats his other wife, like he did LeeAnn and me....most likely. I seen her walking up the road one day crying...she was pushing her baby up the road and crying...I suppose they just said she was emotional and disobedient.....Uncle Roy said that the second my Father touched Rebecca he had no athourity over us....and that is how it is with these predator's..Willard Barlow can not exhalt me, he is a son of perdition.....and Lyle Jeffs is yet to see many more sorrow's...tis' a pity...all those children could have been protected if he had cared......all the ones that left and will leave, for there is not gospel in my family of apostate men........

Anonymous said...

I guess Lyle Jeffs was not here...I can not blame him...I guess I just looked up to him....for he is not like Richard Cooke and my Father....Lyle is an honest man...I think.....maybe he ain't the boss anyhow....these people just use who they want as an excuse anyhow.....they use any good man's name so it looks better...Lyle Jeffs I a good man, I think.....i am not sure who he is anyhow.....some say, one some say another...but i know for sure that the man I think is Lyle has not ever harmed me......

Anonymous said...

Ruth, didn't Laurene forgive her father and Dick? That is what she had to do to gain acceptance and
support. Now she has all she ever wanted, money.

Anonymous said...

She may have forgiven. I have too, but that does not change the truth that she was abused by him, and that he was a preditor. That does not mean that Richard Cooke is not a preditor. He was and is. When I lived with Richard Cooke he did tell me to come to prayer at a certain time. When I did go to his bedroom, for that is where he had prayer He was alone and standing on his bed with no cloths on. That was the last time I did go to prayer. Forgive him, yes, but to say he was not guilty and that he will not have to pay the price for his creepyness is another story...And also He did try to teach me how to use a computer by putting his arms around me to show me. He would take his cloths of and throw them in my face, in front of his family and throw them in my face....when I complained they threw me out, and he was a King....I think it is harder on me to forgive those who sat there and watched him abuse me and did nothing than it was for me to deal with him......I never miss him. Laurene did at the time protest at how horrid Richard Cooke was treating me, and that is why he threw her out too. I do not dislike her. I am glad she is taken care of......and for a few years all I did was get punished by my counsolor to submit to Richard Puke Cooke so I could go home. I was laying here in my bed wondering why they always protect the abuser's and do not care about me.....Even those stupid cops here in town talk to me like I am guilty and try to make so I can not talk, because Lyle Jeffs is so involved protecting a gross man that he can not see truth at all........yes, forgive....but that does not mean they are not guilty.......And I was thinking that if Laurene ever got a good bit more stuff, she would not ever be found again under her pile......I know for sure she never cared a whit about me.......but then I was not thrown down and abused like she was....I do not know her inside demon's. I had a sister; i will not say her name, that was held over the edge of the grand canyon and abused by my Father, because she was afraid of hights......I was just laying in my bed, wondering why our men are such creepy liars and do not care about truth. I did not want my daughter raised like me, and they just found another creepy abuser, like Willard to throw me away to again......I wonder why the Lord does not remove the creepy, filthy horrid men, before a whole new generation of children are contaminated........And do you think Willard's children would tell what he did to them? No, they slam dunk the ones who tell the truth to kingdom come, so the poor widdle boy, can be coddled.......Some one told me that Uncle Warren said Willard was a man like him...Willard used say all the time, he was just a little boy...That was to take advantage of his victums......He was worse than my father ever was.......i do not dislike Laurene...I do not care if her stuff pile goes to the moon....

Anonymous said...

All Laurene had to do is cater to the biggest dog here......the cruelest and meanest and give into their demands and she was taken care of....I was too proud. Just as if nothing ever happened. Besides Lyle Jeffs told me to go home to Willard Barlow, just as if nothing had ever happened...so it is his debt...for his sorrow shall be great, when he gets in the spirit world and see's all the souls he helped destroy........I wish I could just forget the stupid man....Why did he hate me? that is what I ask every day. why did he hate me? why did he not care? Why did he hate me and my children? Why did he give and give and give to child mollester's and hate me?

Anonymous said...

and Just what Willard Barlow did to Nate and Donna when I lived with him, will keep me from ever going to his house again, or ever living with him. He tormented and abused my two handicap children when I lived there. I have not forgotton their screams and no matter what Lyle Jeffs does or does not do, I shall not ever go back to Willard Barlow and sooner or later they will have to tell the truth.....It does not even comfort me, that he will go into dissilusion....I just wish I could forget what he did.....Yes, forgive and shut your mouth so no one ever knows the truth......That is all a person ever has to do to get into the church......Just be a good flatter, that beats his wife and children behind closed door's and if the woman cry or complain, rush them off like vagabonds to be medicated, punished and tormented.......why do you think Willard's girls would not ever tell the truth......LeeAnn never cared anyhow....I know she did not support abuse, but the trouble with the woman who sit and do nothing is they care only for themselves anyhow......LeeAnn ran away from Willard a whole lot before I married him, and then when I complain it is oh, he is such a saint.....So all you fancyied up people with your fancied up shows saying there is no child mollesters here; too bad it was not true......too bad you did not do what Uncle Rulon taught...for there are at least twenty who walk here in town all the time, like nothing happened why every one jumps like panther's on some women because they breath......and Lyle Jeffs owes me a debt........

Anonymous said...

And so does William Timpson Jessop, who said Uncle Warren hated me, and not one man cared a stupid bit about truth....And Uncle Roy taught the second a man touched his daughter he lost Priesthood, and Willard Barlow is a child mollester.....and torments handicap children.....and God has recorded it...and they can beat me up all they like to shut up truth, but truth is truth and These men will pay the price...........all of them that supported this........

Anonymous said...

Here is my trubute to Texas...I walked upon your soil, forsaken and forlorn. There I found kindness and charity.....I had faith in Texas Justice and Texas Hospitality.......A storm did grow, and bluster and Texas Held my faith true......
True American Hero's, who defended Liberty.......
Texas is my Country, Texas is my star. Texas is my Liberty, from truants, from the start......
How, could have William Timpson Jessop, or Lyle Jeffs have known the deceit of these other men.....They did put them out of the church, Richard Cooke and the other's at least....Willard has his turn coming....Lyle Jeffs and William Timpson Jessop, would not support abuse....I have faith in them, as I did in Texas.....Texas did not let me down.....And they earned the beautiful songs in their Honor......The Stars at night are big and bright, deep in the heart of Texas......Texas is my country and my heaven.........Thank You Texas....Thank you........Thank you Arizona for correcting this tryranny of these abusive men......Thank You Texas, Thank You Arizona, now it is Utah's turn......It is almost time to Thank Utah too....They have to return what is mine, that was taken from me......And Utah is good and kind....They will do the right thing.......

Anonymous said...

And Utah, why you consider waving the Flag of Freedom, in honor of Liberty; remember that the choices you make will be remembered forever; Are you Nathan Hale, or Boggs? We Stand in HONOR as the COUNTRY WHO HOLDS THE FLAG OF LIBERTY...... I will make no consession.....I fly my Flag with the greatest of HONOR...... And it protect's LIBERTY.......WILL YOU FLY THIS FLAG? That is the only question you really have to answer......AS ONE NATION UNDER GOD, WITH LIBERTY FOR ALL? or will you fly your flag in glory, with your shame in your closet....FOR THIS PROTECTS ALL.......AND THE LORD WILL WIN...HE SENT COLUMBUS. HE SENT THE MEN OF EVERY COUNTRY.......AND WE WON......JUST DEPENDS ON IF YOU WANT TO LOSE OR WIN...FOR WE ARE ONE COUNTRY, AND JUSTICE FOR ALL.......THIS SIDE OF THE VEIL OR THE OTHER........YOUR CHOICE....I RECOMEND YOU STAND UP FOR LIBERTY.......FREEDOM FOR ALL...ONE NATION UNDER GOD, AND JUSTICE FOR ALL.......THAT IS ALL THAT PROTECTS EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU.......AND THE LORD HAS HIS PEOPLE...HERE OR THE OTHER SIDE OF THE VEIL...FOR JOSEPH DOES LIVE AS DOES JESUS......

Anonymous said...

Lets hear three cheer's for truth...Lets here three cheers for honesty....Lets here three cheers for our country....Lets hear three chear's for honest men's sacrifices....Let's hear three cheer's for Liberty, and Justace for all. Let's here three cheer's for Life, and Liberty......and a speedy end to the war.....for all men are the Lords.......It is written that three Rabbi's will get down on their knee's and ask the Lord for peace, in the middle east and he will give it....And the one's in the mountian's who will not fight, will be defended......We will have Peace.........We have been promised........

Anonymous said...

Long May our Flag be Bright, with Freedom's Holy Light, Great God our King.........That is the next song I dedicate to TEXAS, ARIZONA, AND ANYONE ELSE WHO DESIRES THE RIGHT.........AND TO MY DAUGHTER IN HEAVEN...MY DAUGHTER'S IN HEAVEN...MAY THEY REJOICE IN THEIR GLORY........

Anonymous said...

It is shocking to me to know it was the people I loved and trusted who wanted me dead......Here is a poem for Lyle Jeffs and his people....
once there was a stranger who no one saw.....This stranger walked among them every day. And they seen them not.....Once there was a stranger who did not exist.....Only upon their lips was gossip and talk....Once there was a stanger they hated, for they seen them not...and abusive men gained their plot...Once there was murder's in our church...who sat with great glee, hiding their marks and did all they could to destroy me...and the people rejoiced to see me die......that was the legacy of my church to me.........Dedicated to Lyle Jeffs, William Timpson Jessop and company......these are the people who hated me, and would rejoice to see me dead.......for they listened only to the one who sought my death.......and sicne they hated me with all their hearts, I can not help but wish they had succeeded in murdering me.........

Anonymous said...

these are the people who hated me.....Lyle Jeffs and company....I was a fool, just like they said; for I loved them and would defend them still....I can not live forever and they will have their wish, of my death.......too bad I was such a fool to believe that their was people that lived what Uncle Rulon taught.....for they preached one thing, and did all they could to destroy me.....

Anonymous said...

I wonder how it would have felt, to have had some one care? I guess I will find out when I die.....They are praying for me to die.. Pray with me that they will get their wish, so I can be with the Lord, and not his hardhearted, cruel people, who love who they want and hate me.......and please Lord, let me forget them; these cruel people who sought my life......and let me die sooner than later......

Anonymous said...

If only I had never met my mother. I would have never felt the sting of the whip. If only I had never met my Mother, I would have never felt the sting of my Father's belt. If only I had never met my Mother, I would have never married the men who abused me. If only I had never met my mother, I would have had some one care......If only I had never met my mother. She told me every day, I would not ever have any friends, and I never did..She seen to that...If only I had never met my Mother....If only I had died when I was born, or when I was two.....IF only I had not ever met my Mother, someone would have cared about me......I would have been fed, instead of beat. I would have been loved instead of being thrown away....If only I had never met my Mother, I would not have ever met these people who hated me......If only that cop would have adopted me out, the day they arrested my Father, and changed my name, and gave me to a Mother that loved me, of Only.....that is my poem....If only I had never met my Mother. Some one would have loved me......

Anonymous said...

and may the Lord give me the streanth to stay off this blog; and away from all the world.....

Anonymous said...

....and may you find Peace so that you can meet the challenges life hands you and you won't have to worry what your "friends" think.

Anonymous said...

you are right about that one too......How, wise the words of the wise......may the Lord bless me with peace, love, charity, and forgiveness forever and ever, so I can be crowned......my glory earned...no more complaining from me......

Anonymous said...

the only thing that knowing what my friends did think of me, was that it would have saved me from being bartered on the Black market........and even walking through that expereince is not, and was not as painful as knowing that they would do that to me......and they shook hands with the guilty, told them they loved them, and flattered them into leaving......I only care what the Lord thinks...He is my one true, and greatest friend........but thank you for the advice.......

Anonymous said...

and the greatest tradgedy is that they have to have a nobody to pick on....If it had not been me, it would have been some one else, and if it does not end with me, there will be another nobody that they do it too......

Anonymous said...

I should not blather on, for the Lord did say that Lyle Jeffs was perfect.......I am not he.......I am not the Lord..I can not change what he does.....my opionion is but blather, if it is not the truth with the Lord......I do repent of blathering....for I know with all my heart and soul that Lyle Jeffs is perfect. How would he know who is the greatest decievers of all time......The Lord will handle the evil doer...I am not the Lord and neither is Lyle Jeffs. He is a man, subject to the Lord just like all men are....Good men, and evil men...All are subject to the Lord.........and all will be put in their place....all......Lyle Jeffs did not care about me...That is all.......He will one day.....

Anonymous said...

In reality it does not make a hill's bit of difference who cares, and who does not.....The Lord cared about me, and even if I had starved to death on that desert the day Stephan Barlow dropped me of, when I was so ill I could not walk, and told me I was not worth even a trailer house in the park, The Lord would have still loved me......and all you people who support that, are murder's and can not get out of God's justice at all...no matter what you think........And the day Sam Barlow and Richard Cooke ordered that drug to put me in the grave, they became murder's and it does not really matter what paper's they destroy to cover up what they did..they will be what they are in the spirit world.....and truth will never be changed no matter who loves me or who does not...and Warren Jeffs, Lyle Jeffs, and William T. Jessop are inacent no matter who loves them or who does not.......and it is recorded in heaven....where only truth does dwell.......

Anonymous said...

I don't understand why you are saying that Lyle Jeffs is perfect. It sounds like he has not treated you nicely.

Anonymous said...

but in reality, Lyle Jeffs hated me.......I wonder why his people do not put sinide in my food, so they can be done with all the desires of their hearts......since they hated me so much.....most likly because the state is watching them......

Anonymous said...

This is why I say what I do about Lyle Jeffs. I asked him for help ten years ago. I was turned away, and the men abusing me was put on a pedistle. When I cried to the Lord, I was impressed that Lyle Jeffs is a good man. I mean he does not abuse children and if he knew of abuse he would not agree to this...He has only flattered an abusive man and hates me....He does not know the truth, but he himself is not abusive; and I can not fault him for being flattered and decieved by a tratior. In truth I feel sorry for him....How many more people's lives will be ruiend, by deciever's and how many lost boys and wayword girls will their be, because of one more abusive man every one flatter's and coddles.....Lyle Jeffs told me he hated me.....The man abusing me told me Lyle Jeffs hated me and it was going to be easy to destroy me, just because Lyle Jeffs hated me. he was right...so we have another generation of abused children and it will be to Lyle Jeffs great sorrow and lamentation that he did not care.........so it is like a whip in the wind...Lyle Jeffs....He hated me, and protected abuse, but how would he know what his men do behind closed doors when he is not looking. I know this man is a great flatter, in public and a demon behind closed doors........Lyle Jeffs was only lied too...He is not an abuser.....

Anonymous said...

nothing on this blog means anything... It is just a stupid blog...anyone can say anything and it is very depressing.....